I’m sitting at home watching Sex and the City while thinking about my failed relationships. It bothers me that I’m still single, and most of my ex’s are in relationships. The last guy I liked was tall dark and handsome. We met at Blue Martini on a Thursday night. We had some drinks, Showed off our salsa moves on the dance floor, and chatted with eachothers friends. The whole thing was definitely unexpected. Even though, at first I wasn’t extremely attracted to him or thought of him as relationship material, I decided to keep seeing him for the rest of the week.
We had so much fun going out, meeting eachothers friends, and the sex was amazing (Which is something he mentioned first), but I guess none of it was enough to keep it going, because he ended up pulling away. When I asked what was up, he told me he was going overseas to be with his ex. That hit me hard, not because I was in love with him or anything just yet, but because thing’s like this has happened before.
It also confuses me. With the hand holding in public, and the one on one conversations and quality time at his place…was it not enough? Was I not enough? He said he didn’t want to lead me on, yet he already did. Just the fact he mentioned another girl bothers me the most. I’ve had guy’s who have chosen other girl’s over me and I can’t help to question myself: What did I do wrong? Am I the problem? Is it me?